giraffe

but it's all just writing, writing, writing
and it does nothing

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if i can draw my feelings out onto the screen
with the words i write
then i believe i won't have to feel anything anymore
which is what i convince myself i want
what i convince myself is best
for everyone

constantly pulling myself in two directions
unable to move in the direction i most desire
(i need more help than i get)

but really no need for any pulling
because we feel everything, don't we?
don't we.

but the only way to stay proud, rigid,
and neither happy nor sad
(but mostly sad)
is to pretend that
i don't.